diamku, dalam suara-suara

Kadang aku hanya terdiam..
saat semua orang berbicara..
dalam suara-suara yang kudengar..
aku mendengar diriku sendiri berkata..
"oh Tuhan.."
"aku begitu merindukannya.."


for my beloved heavenly buddies..sometimes..i just don't understand..why i always miss him..all-the-time

falling..freely

i thought..
i have prepared it well..
i thought..
i will be strong as i used to be..
i thought..
i could lie myself again..
i thought..
i could say' it's nothing'..
i thought..
i could say 'everthing's alright'..
i thought..
it will be easy..
i thought..
i had a good thoughts..
but i know..
my thoughts were totally wrong..

i thought..
i'm ready..
but..
i'm falling..
free falling..